It is like a raging fire's seething through my whole being, scathing me internally, venoming my interior.
Like a hundred souls rest within this mortal body, and they break havoc all the time. Chained beasts, writhing and snapping at the locks holding them back, doing away with each link with every single attempt. Not a single one goes wasted. Boring into me, my heart, my soul with that cold, red-eyed gaze of theirs. And no, it does not make me tremble with fear. It just makes the diabolic me stand taller, towering over my calm self.
The malice ,the sheer wish of destroying the other is back. A blinding rage, finding its way out of every little loophole, like a dormant volcano that suddenly came to life. The more you push it down, the more it hits you back with invincible velocity, tearing away at every fibre of your being.
And then, a sudden calm. A smile ,a breath of relief. A look of love, of care, of compassion. Ah ! And we finally get back to normal.........or do we ?
Another one crossing the line, and the peaceful demeanor is shattered to pieces, each one piercing into his body, his mind, is blessed SOUL, as he tries to struggle free of your gripping gaze. A gaze that presses down on every nerve of his, slitting each one of them as it progresses. He bleeds of apologies; He reeks of misgivings. He weeps with regret; he is hit with yet another sin. And just when you thought you won't ever get done with him, he ceases to breathe. Over. You just sabotaged the very core of his being - his conscience...........and now, he is one of you.